The Psychopathology phenomenon

 In this day and age it's almost impossible to lock ourselves away from what seems like the prehistoric diagnoses of depression, anxiety, etc. etc.
Yet what really are such 'illnesses', I'm not going to pretend I know everything because I don't, I've missed out on a lot of my life, my childhood, my schooling, and yet even know at 17 years old I'm being told to guzzle down some sugar coated pill shaped bundles of lies and get on with it. Although fairly relaxed I'm far from a hardy person. Instead I'll just sit and cry, or over think. I hate the term procrastinate, overused my hipsters and bitches I wish to strangle.
 However does anyone actually know what is wrong with us?
I'm not depressed. I have manic depression.
I'm dangerous, I'm horrible and most of all I'm useless.
I wouldn't say I've been through a lot, I'm extremely numb now anyway

How to deal with a suicidal ex

Life isn't always what we plan, sometimes we take u turns, sometimes we get lost, other times we just deify every rule we put for ourselves.
I broke up with my boyfriend.
No big deal for me, but him, well I'll just say he pulled a fast one on me.
Threatening suicide, he kept me up all night whilst he had a hospital stay, but I'd be lying if I said I cared, I mean of course I care, but I don't feel hurt.
Just empty.
He's left my life, after a stern block on the old book of face. I finally feel liberated.
But hey look what's around this corner
Exams
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I'm not prepared, not even revised
Here's to the end of my life, three cheers for mol-irradictation